Must Read: My Teenage Mind (18+)

Episode 6 years ago

Must Read: My Teenage Mind (18+)

I woke up the next day feeling different. The room was somehow crowded; my sister and her husband,Vivian,Ifunanya and her brother.

My mum was also there. They were all smiling while they took turns to carry Kamsi. I greeted them and they all responded and cheered happily,wishing me a happy birthday. Mum took me to the bathroom and helped me shower,using hot water and napkin in the right places while I screamed out in pain.

Around 11,Vivian,Ifunanya and her brother left promising to come back the next day. I dressed up and escorted them downstairs. I was about coming back upstairs when I heard someone call my name. I turned around and there was my roommate. She was with four of my friends and they had a birthday cake with them. I hugged each one of them while they complimented that I didn’t look like someone who just delivered.

I asked them how they knew where I was and they said that they had called early that morning and mum picked the call and gave them directions. I was happy to know that I had friends who would hit the road for me at any time.

We all walked upstairs. They greeted my mum and my sister’s together with her husband.
Conversations started and finally,the cake was cut. Mum said it wasn’t time for me to eat any cake. I was pissed. Why shouldn’t I eat my own birthday cake(and I love cakes eh)? Mum gave the remainder to Ella,asking her to take it home and preserve it that when I’m discharged,I’ll eat my share.

We spent four days in the hospital. My dad kept calling asking after me and my baby. We were finally discharged and before we left,mum clearly told me that I’ll breastfeed my baby for just six months,after that,the baby automatically belongs to her and my dad. I had mixed feelings about it.
But when she began to explain that making Kamsi stick to me would make my youth slow and deprive me from a lot of things,I agreed.

We got home and people kept on trooping into the house to see my baby,even the ones I knew and the ones I didn’t know. Some came with gifts,others came with money but none of them pleased my mum the more than the fact that they all called her “youngest grandmother”.
She would dance around each time they called her that. My siblings weren’t left out. They all wanted to be the only ones carrying Kamsi.

My dad came home a week after we were discharged. He called me to his room and started a long sermon. He was angry that I got pregnant without telling anybody. He also made me promise him that I would never make that kind of mistake again. He repeated the same thing that I would stop breastfeeding Kamsi after six months and go back to school.

A month later,I was at the balcony,mum now takes Kamsi to the shop. I was home alone when my phone rang. I looked at my phone,the number I had off heart was displayed on it……. Raymond.

I got angry immediately;

Me: What do you want?

Raymond: I want to see you

Me: For what?

Raymond: Please I just want to see you. Its very important.

Me: I’m at home. Come to the house.
In less than 20 minutes,Raymond was in my house. I opened the gate and he walked in.


I didn’t let him into the house. We just stood beside the gate

Me: What is it?

Raymond: Can I see her?

Me: See who?

Raymond: My baby.
I felt disgusted. I was angry but I tried not to show it.

Me: Please her name is Kamsi and she is not your baby.

Raymond: What do you mean? I want to see her.

Me: She travelled with mum.

Raymond: Don’t you breastfeed her?

Me: Like it’s your business?

Raymond: Fine. Let me see her pictures.

Me: I don’t have any on my phone (when I always make sure I take pictures of her each time she takes her bath)

Raymond: Look,I know I hurt you and I’m sorry. I just want to know what she looks like.

Me; its not possible. You can’t see her.

Raymond: You don’t want me to see her? You won’t like it when I react.

He was about making a threat. In order not to let him,I had to say something.

Me: Please leave now. I don’t have any of her pictures but once she is three months old,I’ll send you some.

He looked like he had a lot more to say but I finally made him leave. I locked up and went inside. What if he confronts my mum? I had to do something.
I’ve told mum that Kamsi’s father was dead and so shall it remain.