Must Read: Sis Adesewa

Episode 6 years ago

Must Read: Sis Adesewa

I didn’t attend choir practise on Saturday nor church service on sunday because i didn’t want to see Mrs Williams. I’ve made up my mind not to tell her anything and i knew she would ask me if she set her eyes on me.


I didn’t know i was only adding more petrol to a burning fire.

Some choir members came again after service to check on me,thinking i haven’t recovered fully or not strong enough to attend service.Of course when i saw them,i pretended to be weak still.
Bode came later in d evening when everybody had left.

He said “I knew u didnt come to church today bcs of me,not bcs of ur health.U refuse to forgive me despite my pleas.

I told u its d work of d devil,pls let’s be doing as we used to do before..pls now”.. He began to weep.

I was moved with passion when i saw him weeping.I went to him,gave him a gentle pat on d back,and said “Dt’s
okay.

Stop crying.

It wasnt only ur fault,but mine too.We
both need to ask God for forgiveness and make sure it doesnt happen….”

Before I could finise my sentence he got up and started kissing me, every attempt to rescue myself out of his hand failed at that time so I surrendered and again ……………… it happened!!!

Before i could put myself together,Bode dressed up and ran out of my room.

I started weeping.

“Lord,i’ve done it again.I disobeyed U.I didnt yield to the voice of d Holyspirit.What will i do now?”.

For days,i was praying and weeping,asking God for forgiveness and what to do,i didnt hear anything as I heard it earlier.It was so obvious dt something was wrong with me,as i was a shadow of myself.Even my dressing changed,a 60yr old woman would dress better. Everybody was asking, ” what’s wrong with u?.Hope there’s no problem.Are u still sick?”.

My usual answer was “No problem,all is well”.. but within me,i knew nothing was well.

I wasnt attending mid-week services also.I would prefer to be in my room,and be thinking.D thought dt bothered me most was “Will God ever forgive me?.

If d first one was a mistake,what about ds one?”.

Mrs Williams called me one wednesday evening after having prayer meeting in church. ”Sis Sewa,i noticed u were not in church today for d prayer meeting,how are u?.Are u not
okay yet?”.

“I’m fine ma”.

“Then,why have u been keeping urself away from church?”.

“Nothing ma.”

“U’ve started again.Oh!.Dt reminds me,u promised to tell me something d other day,will u come and see me tomorrow after school?. I will be waiting for u at d church office.”

“What time ma?”

“Let’s make it 4pm”.

“Ok ma”.

She hung up, my heart started beating very fast I could even hear the sound. What will I tell her?? Maybe I should just cook up some story..but,what if she knew it’s all lies. Oh my God!..what
mess have i gotten myself into?. How will i get out of this now?.As i was pondering over ds,my phone rang.

It was my dad.I picked it.