Must Read: My Teenage Mind (18+)

Episode 6 years ago

Must Read: My Teenage Mind (18+)

Found myself in a hospital very early this morning.
They gave me a big sachet of drip. I just came home now and decided its best to check on you guys.

I had spent three months in owerri(I left on November 16 2014) when the management suggested transferring some workers to Awka.
I was chosen and it made me happy,at least,I’ll be close to home. A week before we left,I logged on to my badoo and surprisingly,there was a message from Raymond. It was all about missing me and all that. I told him where I was and he said he wanted to see me. I sent him some of my pictures and told him I’ll be in awka soon so we’ll get to see then.

I entered Awka on the second week of February.
Raymond and I were supposed to meet on the 14th(Valentine’s day) but something came up so I couldn’t go down to Onitsha. One day,I was on Facebook when I saw a post on his wall;

“can’t believe I’m getting married in one week.So happy.”

I laughed,thinking it was one of those posts people make to get attention online.

His friend had commented on that post,asking him if it was me but he didn’t respond.

I quickly called him;

Me: Hello

Ray: Rose,this one you called today,am i safe?

Me: Yes o. I just called to hear from you or is it bad?

Ray: Not at all. How is work?

Me: Fine and stressful.

Ray: Its allowed nah.

Me: So you’re getting married?

Ray: Guess you must’ve seen it on Facebook. That’s the reason i wanted to see you.

Me: Wait. Are you serious?

Ray: Yes. . . . . .
I hung up. My head started aching immediately. I felt the tears stretch from my ear before finding their way through my eyes. I cried bitterly. Is that how wicked people are? I cursed my life and everything I had gone through. Why would Raymond do these to me? He is getting married to someone else after all I went through for him? My friend tried her best to console me but I wouldn’t stop. I woke up the next morning feeling very sick.

A lab test proved I had malaria. I refused taking my drugs. All I wanted to do was die so I will never get to see Raymond and his new family. I went back to Facebook and went to his timeline. I found out the date for the ceremony was 28 February.

My girlfriend suggested that we attend it but I refused. She said we’ll go and ruin the wedding but I didn’t have that mind. He wants to be happy,maybe I wasn’t good enough for him so I’ll just let him be happy. My girlfriend was like, ”see Rose,this guy took your virginity,made you a mother at 19,you even lied to your parents just to cover up for him. Now,he is getting married to someone else and you are going to let him go without a fight?”

Tears didn’t let me speak. I couldn’t say anything. She was right. Someone I had sacrificed a lot for,someone I loved so much. If I had known things would end that way,I would have just told my people that he was responsible for my pregnancy.

I regretted my past and wished there was a way for me to mend things.

On the 26th I called Raymond;

Ray: Hello

Hearing his voice made me start crying all over again. I had sworn not to cry but it wasn’t working.

Me: So its true?
He paused for a while before speaking;

Ray: I knew this was going to be your reaction that’s why I wanted to see you so I can tell you myself.

I hung up because my tears wouldn’t let me continue. Besides,was I supposed to wish him a happy married life? My roommate walked in and stared at me for a while;

Lucy: What are you doing to yourself? If you continue crying like this,he won’t come back to you.

That bastard has taken what he wanted from you and has moved on so trust me,you have to move on as well.

Me: But I can’t. I love him no matter what.
He’s the father of my child,he took my virginity so I can’t forget him.

Lucy: Now let me tell you,what’s that his name again? Raymond right?
I nodded.

Lucy: He too will never forget you. If he ever loved you,he’ll always have you in mind,he’ll always talk about you and he’ll never forgive himself for all he had done to you. You once told me he’s an only son. Maybe his mum pressurized him into getting married or something like that. He . . . .

Me: Nobody pressurized him. He’s happy.

Lucy: Of course he’ll pretend to be happy.
His first child is with you. Nobody can beat that not even his wife. A time will come when you’ll remember my words and you’ll thank me. Stop crying. Let him get married since you don’t want to ruin it. Let him get married but I know he’ll always come to look for you.

I looked at her and she nodded. I hugged her warmly

Lucy: Trust me,everything works out perfectly for those who trust in God. You missed Raymond because he is not the best. God has seen your suffering and he’s saving the best for you. Take your bath let’s go and buy suya.

Me; From your pocket o

Lucy: No problem.

i sprang up from the bed and went into the bathroom.