Must Read: My Teenage Mind (18+)

Episode 6 years ago

Must Read: My Teenage Mind (18+)

28 passed and I was grateful I had my room mate who didn’t let me be alone that Saturday.

The next day being Sunday,my girlfriend suggested that I call him. I refused but she insisted, saying that if I really needed to be happy and move on,that I should call him for the last time.

Me: Hello!
I think he was surprised to hear the confidence in my voice

Ray: Rose

Me: How are you?

Ray: I’m fine.

Me: How was the wedding?

Ray: Successful. We thank God.

Me: Guess you guys will be going for Thanksgiving today.

Ray: No. It was just the traditional wedding that was done.

Me: Oh! Forgive me. Thought it was the white wedding. How is she?

Ray: Who?

Me: Our wife.

Ray: She’s fine. She’s even here. Should I give her the phone?
I thought for a while, maybe he has told her about me or maybe not. My roomie gave me a nod.

Me: Yes please. Give her the phone.
Wifey: Hello

Me: Good morning

Wifey: Good morning.

Me: Congratulations on your marriage

Wifey: Thank you

Me: You’re welcome. Please take care of him for me o

Wifey: I will. Thank you.

Me: Please give him the phone.
I bade him goodbye and ended the call before turning to my room mate.

Lucy: You’ve done your own part. Its now left for his conscience to judge him. Don’t call him ever again. If he wants to speak with you,he should call you.

Me: If there is a way for me to block him in all my social networks, I’ll do that. I don’t want to see him again.

Lucy: You and I know that its not possible.
Just be cool. If he chats you up,reply in your best polite manner. He’s not worth the heart attack.
We started discussing other issues about work.

I later blocked Raymond on my Facebook when I saw he used his traditional marriage picture as his profile picture. I would not mind to see anything except the face of his wife.

Easter was fast approaching and I was fast preparing my resignation letter. I had missed home a lot.

On good Friday morning, I went to the hotel and gave the manager my letter. I didn’t even let him open it before I walked out. I went back to my apartment and finished up with my packing. I bade my roommate goodbye before I left for home.

My people were happy to see me.

They kept on complaining about how lean I was.
Again,I apologized to mum for leaving home without her permission. She asked me to kneel down and I did. She brought a plate of water and said a prayer of blessing then she used the water to wash my face. We all went together to the church that evening. I was happy to be home after five months.
It was the next day that I started telling my friends that I was back. They all wanted to see me and they were happy.

Easter came and passed. My siblings spent one week at home before school resumed leaving me all alone. I decided to start socialising once again. I had being indoors since I came back and it always made me think about my past. I started going to the shop with mum. Three weeks after I came back,Vivian lost her dad. He never recovered from that stroke.
The date for the burial was fixed and as a friend,I went there a day before the burial. She was full of thanks because I helped in almost everything.

I even sewed the burial clothe. Most people were asking me if the late John was my father.

After the burial which took place in may,I went home.
Two days after I returned, Raymond chatted me on WhatsApp. He said he wanted to see me and I told him my house was available.

The next day,I was dressing up to go and register in a dance class when he called,saying he was in front of my house. I went down,opened the gate and let him in. I spoke to myself that I was going to be strong so he won’t know how I felt about the whole thing.

Ray: How are you?

Me: I’m fine.

Ray: I must confess,you’re looking good. Damn! Look at those hips.
We both laughed.

Me: You’re crazy. Thank you.

Ray: Heard you went for Vivian’s dad’s burial. Heard you even spent the night. Is that how close you two have become?

Me: She’s my friend nau.

Ray: That’s nice.

Me: So how’s everyone at home?

Ray: They are all fine.

Me: And Wifey?

He looked at me briefly before responding;

Ray: She’s fine.
I was about saying something else before he shut me up with his words;

Ray; You know,I’ve missed you.
The tears hit my throat immediately.

Ray: Better don’t cry. If you do, I’m going to kiss you here.
I hit his shoulder playfully and wiped my tears.

Me: But why did you get married?
He paused,looked at me and lied;

Ray: Because I wanted to.

I don’t know why my thoughts are like that but I knew he was lying. The Raymond I knew,who just graduated would love to explore life a little,besides,he had no good job at that time so I quickly had to take what Lucy had told me before; his mum.

Me: And you couldn’t even tell me?

Ray: Don’t say that,I wanted to see you but you disappointed me. The plan was that we see,spend some days in a hotel room,f*ck,f*ck again and I’ll tell you. You’ll cry,I was very sure of that but then,we’ll f*ck again.

I looked at him and shook my head not knowing what else to say.

Ray: But I’m sorry.
I was surprised at his apology but what will I do? Bottom line,he is married and there is nothing we can do about it.

Me: Its okay. So when is the white wedding going to come up? Many years to come I guess.

Ray: Says who? October.(but it never happened)

Me: Oh! Okay. Good luck then.
We talked about other things before he left while I went back to finish up with my make up before leaving for the dance class.